My Last Full Week!!!

It is Monday morning and this morning will be my 15th treatment which is three quarters of the way done.  I can an least see the light at the end of the tunnel now.  I am amazed at the breadth of feelings which one experiences while going through cancer treatment.  Sometimes I feel like I really don't have cancer (maybe that's just denial) and other times, especially when I see the variety of effects on people, it really makes me sad.  Mostly that anyone has to deal with cancer.  It is definitely an ugly disease and it affects everyone a little diffently.  As I talk to some of the people at the Hope Lodge, it is amazing the amount of time some people spend over here.  Talked to one lady who has been here since September.  I guess once again, I need to really be thankful for the short stint I will have. 

I have this morning's treatment and tomorrow's treatment and then they will do what they call a boost to the actual excision area.  I don't know if that is going to create more of an issue than I have had so far or not.  My skin is really showing an almost "tan/sunburn line" so I can see where the actual radiation is going.  I was so amazed to see the line way under my arm and around to my back.  I asked the oncologist about it and she said that comes from the angle they have to use to cover the entire breast.  Hmmmm.  The things we really don't know.  I have been keeping the cream on so it hasn't been too bad and at least so far the skin
hasn't broken down.  I guess for some people it actually weeps like a real sunburn.  But the oncologist says it's a matter of the new skin cells not being able to replace at a fast enought rate.  I have been taking Emer'gen-C a couple of times a day hoping that the extra c will help the skin repair faster.  Who knows what really works and I am sure what works for one doesn't neccessarily work for everyone.

So it snowed again a little bit last night.  The worst over here is that they don't get the really nice weather like we do at home so it goes away for a little bit.  Just stays.  Had a good week-end with the kids though.  The boys are fun even if Garrett is on the unbelievably rambunctious side.  He started preschool on Thursday and loved it so that was really good.  He needs it to say the least.  He has always said that he doesn't want to go to school so it was a surprise that he was so at ease with going.  Never can figure.

Well, I need to get ready for the day but realized I hadn't posted again for several days.  I guess that means time is going faster than I thought.  But I am definitely ready for this part of the journey to be done and get home and back to work!  So until next time.  Hugs.  Love, Patsy